I've been trying to find my stride with this blog and have decided I want to take a new, more personal direction. Other astrologers do an outstanding job looking at global events, namely Jamie Darkstar and Richard Tarnas come to mind. I've taken a look at the US chart and have enjoyed writing about what I found there, which is mostly a lot of turmoil over the next 10 years. The world is definitely going through some growing pains. I've also started some posts on beginning astrology and how to get started. I hope to continue those posts intermittently over the course of my writing time, hopefully another 40 or so years :-). Maybe after I've posted on all 79 cards of the Osho Zen deck, I'll be ready to pick another deck and work my way through. Another writing project to unfold over the long hall.
But for right now and the foreseeable future, I'd like to pick up a new thread and write more personally about the series of mid-life transits that are currently kicking my spiritual rear end. I am currently 42 and if you are as well, then you should know my kind of struggle as well. In fact, the full range of mid-life transits essentially run from 37 to 45, peaking at different times for different people based on the year of birth. If you were born between 1965 and 1973, then you are at the beginning, in the thick of, or wrapping up four major energy transits involving the transiting energy point and the identical natal energy point. These are: tPluto square nPluto, tUranus opposite nUranus, tNeptune square nNeptune, and tSaturn opposite nSaturn. The severity and intensity of these transits will vary based on other birth chart aspects and transiting aspects. Those of us lucky to be born in the 1968 to 1970 range of the time period got our Uranus opposition as part of a t-square involving tSaturn opposite tUranus square tPluto!
On a personal note I began the journey to my spiritual awakening/shift in mid-March 2002 when I could begin to be influenced by tPluto on my nPluto (allowing for a 3 degree Orb of influence). In mid-March tPluto was at 17D44M of Sagittarius and the work of this transit began in earnest. During this year I finally decided to ask my wife for a separation and divorce. I had met my birth mother at the beginning of the year (we had been corresponding for almost a year, and we finally met in 2002). tPluto's work was pretty dramatic in the year plus leading up to the first exact opposition in January of 2004. One year to the day after my separation papers were filed (August 13, 2003), I met Betsy, my life partner and soul mate and change rapidly followed suit. We moved into together three weeks after meeting, we discussed having children and got pregnant in May of 2004, and bought a house (the one we currently live in) in October of 2004. Maya, our daughter, was born in January 2005.
Perhaps what I remember as most profound for me during the time of my separation was a sudden desire to have a child or be involved in a child's life (Big Brother or even foster care). That feeling was the most "out of the blue" experience for me, as I would have easily been voted by my high school and college classes as the person least likely to have children. Somewhere in my heart I guess I knew I should not have children with my wife and once free of that relationship the idea had some room to percolate. It would certainly take a book worth of writing to describe all the changes that occurred after a fairly stable period of life between 1994 and 2000. Granted that period of time had some big events, earning my PhD, getting my career job, an affair, but over a longer stretch of time and associated with other key transits (namely my Saturn Return). But nothing like the level and multiplicity of changes brought on by Pluto activating itself!
Throughout 2004 tPluto went square with itself three times (January <direct>, June <retrograde>, and November <direct>) before finally moving on out of Orb (3 degrees) in November of 2005. So the full range of impact lasted from March of 2002 until November of 2005 (from the ages of 34 to 37). tPluto was doing its work in my 2nd House of Values and Resources and, without a doubt, my values and resources shifted tremendously. I went from being married and owning a home to giving that home to my ex-wife and paying support to living in a one bedroom apartment (I loved that apartment) to owning a home again (but instead of me paying for it, my partner Betsy did). I got out of a failing and mutually unhealthy relationship, dated around, and entered back into a long-term relationship that, so far, has proven deeply healing and extremely healthy (and is not a marriage). I did not realize that this period was just the beginning of a period that will span another three to five years.
At the heart of the transition was the squaring energy of nPluto in Virgo in my 11th House with tPluto moving through Sagittarius my 2nd House. My community went through a radical change as I left my marriage behind and entered into a new, more spiritually invested relationship. One of our first dates was to the Body, Mind, and Spirit Expo in Raleigh, NC where we had our aura photos taken. We would visit the expo twice a year and soon after our first year of visits, I had gotten a booth to do tarot readings. My previous community, largely made up of friendships around my marriage and my relationships with my co-workers dissolved and reformed in a community of spiritually minded practitioners, ranging from psychics to massage therapists to henna artists and fellow tarot readers. I also completed the tattoo back mural of Pegasus flying over the ruins of the Temple at Tholos, a site for the Delphic Oracle.
Now that I write about these transformations, I really see the power of this transit and its broad and deep impact on my life. If you are between 30 and 33 and feeling some calm after your Saturn return, fasten your seat belt for the first of the four mid-life transits because, change will be a-coming!
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